Sunday, July 25, 2010

Bronx Stories: Love Child

It was hazy, hot and humid. The three H's. Nothing could be worst. Well almost nothing. The smell of hot garbage was intense. The date was July 24, 1994 and I was nine months pregnant. I woke up early and went to the Puerto Rican Day Parade on the Grand Concourse in the Bronx. This is near 167th Street, about seven blocks from Yankee Stadium. All day my family had been cheering and waving their flags on the sidewalk.

As the flags waved from side to side, we shouted, " Que viva Puerto Rico! (long live Puerto Rico)." We ate piraguas which are a mixture of juice and snow cones, coquitos which are coconut icies and pasteles, an ethnic food that is hard to describe but trust me delicious. I stuffed myself with every single Latin delicacy available.

Later, around 6:00 PM, I went home exhausted feeling pressure and pain in the center of my back. I walked around somewhat and performed the same menial chores I did every evening; cooking, cleaning and tending to my mother's needs as she is wheelchair bound. I waddled around for two hours. Finally, at 8:00 PM, I grew hungry. I was absolutely ravenous and wolfed down three pe
anut butter and jelly sandwiches. At 8:07 PM, I got up to put the plate in the sink and I felt warm fluid coursing down my leg.

My water broke! Immediately, I experienced the most excruciating ring of pain around my waist. My child's father assisted me into the car. I felt every bump, pothole and sharp curve on the way to the hospital. It was an interminably excruciating journey.

He drove me to North Bronx Central Hospital. There were several complications. I had toxemia or preeclampsia, a condition in which high blood pressure and protein in the urine develops after the twentieth week of pregnancy. It is an autoimmune disorder that can have serious repercussions on the fetus, if not controlled.
 

Unfortunately, I then spiked a fever of 104 degrees Farenheit due to a placental infection. I suddenly stopped dilating at nine centimeters. I screamed in anguish because I only had one more centimeter to go! As if that wasn't enough, I threw up peanut butter and jelly all night long. To this day, I refuse to eat a PB & J sandwiches.

Several excruciating hours later, I whispered to my aunt, as my voice was hoarse from vomiting, "I feel like I'm going to die." She runs out of the room and finds a midwife. All of a sudden there were people screaming orders to one another, mass confusion and I was unceremoniously thrown on to a g
urney. I heard "Fetal distress, pressure low. Take her to the O.R. stat!" A nurse jumps on the gurney with her hand placed unceremoniously between my legs.  I am not sure if she was holding the crown of the baby's head or just wanted a free ride.

At last I was rushed into the operating room. I was told to count backwards from ten. I made it to nine and knew no more.

Justin Eric Rodriguez was born at 11:31 PM on July 25, 1994. When I finally awoke, sixteen hours later, to my dismay I found myself in the recovery room. I had an emergency Caesarian section. I cried for several minutes as the realization set in that I had missed the first few hours of my son's life. I was in physical, emotional and mental anguish that would not be assuaged until I held my darling in my arms.

I had the pleasure of gazing into his eyes on the 26th, as both our fevers would not abate. It was one of the happiest moments of my life.



 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!  

LOVE YA,
MOM



This was written when teaching my students to write memoirs. They were suppose to write one of the happiest moments of their lives. This was mine.



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Friday, July 23, 2010

Gossips



There they go again. Two nosey women with nothing better to do than talk about the girl who was caught in an empty apartment with a boy. What does it matter? The girl is not their relative nor a friend. The girl was merely indulging in a clandestine rendezvous with her boyfriend. It was only for an hour. Do these old women understand love? Betcha' they've forgotten what it feels like to have the person you love look at you with stars in their eyes. Damn gossips. It wouldn't be so bad if that girl wasn't . . . me.


Image courtesy of:  Alexander Millar, "Gossips," Washington Green/ Castle Galleries- http://www.castlegalleries.com/artists/alexander_millar/

drabble- n. a story written in exactly 100 words.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

You Said You Loved Me. . .



You said you loved me but I always knew,
that when the time came, you would leave on a cue.



I found the note left on my pillowcase,
it left me in tears, with images I cannot erase.



It broke my heart like shattered glass,
There’s nothing left, our love did not last.



You said you loved me but I always knew,
that when the time came, you would leave on a cue.



Like a leaf on the wind, you came and went
I cannot stop myself from this abysmal descent.



You whispered harshly, an abrupt good-bye.
It was inevitable that you had to die.



You said you loved me but I always knew,
that when the time came, you would leave on a cue.

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Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Caught in the Act


“Did you hear something?”

“No, you’re just being paranoid.”

“Seriously, I hear footsteps.”

“No one’s here. Hurry up. Get the money cart.”

“Wait, I hear them too. What do we do?”

“Quick, behind the door.”

“No, no.  Let’s get in the closet.”

“They always look in the closet.”

“Okay, behind the desk.”

“Don’t be stupid.  They’ll see our feet.”

“Come on.  Behind the door.  No one looks there.”

“I knew this was a bad idea.  All of you always get me in trouble.”

“You wanted the money just as bad.  Get behind the door.”

Footsteps.  Door opens.  Flashlight.

“Anybody here?”

drabble- n. story written in exactly 100 words.


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David Foster Wallace
Kurt Vonnegut

Monday, July 19, 2010

Music Blogfest: The Soundtrack of My Life

I got this wonderful idea from Arleebird.  This blogfest is about the 10 songs that sum up your life.  Join in the fun!  Here we go . . .


1.)Love Child by The Supremes
My mother dedicated this song to me when I was very young.  I didn't really understand the implications then, but I do now.  She was pregnant from my father, whom she loved dearly but was unable to be with him.  His mother was did not approve of my mother simply because of the color of her skin.  The odd thing is that both my parents are Puerto Rican.  They were both born in Puerto Rico, both speak two languages but my father was light-skinned with blue eyes and my mother is dark-skinned with brown eyes. It's a shame really.  I never got to know him.  However, my dad (really my stepfather) raised me as his own.  I suppose it all worked out in the end.


2.) Silly by Deniece Williams 
My first kiss ever!!!!!  I was really young. You can read about it here.



3.)Borderline- Madonna
This was the first song that began my preteen to ansty teenage years.  I dressed in lace gloves, lace ribbons, black rubber bracelets, bright red lipstick and dyed my hair red for the first time.  What was I thinking?  However, during this time, I had my second kiss ever behind the mini-school at C. E. S. 90 in the Bronx. 


4.)  Love is a Battlefield- Pat Benetar
Aah.  This song reminds me of my first real boyfriend. I will leave out his name but we were an on-again-off-again item for almost three years.  I think I was in love with the idea of being in love rather than the individual.  Hindsight is such a wonderful thing.


5.) I Think We're Alone Now- Tiffany
This song is reminiscent of my turbulent high school years that revolved around boys, school and then boys again.  It was a difficult cycle to break.  It would be 10 years before I could get my hormones under control.  :D


6.) The Choice is Yours- Black Sheep
College years- Oh the bad choices I made.  Most of these years were a blur.  I went to Long Island University at C. W. Post campus and this was two years of my life- drinking, partying, playing spades (card game), up all night then going to early morning classes, crash after class and repeat cycle.  Good times!


7.) Not Gon' Cry by Mary J. Blige
My first adult relationship was a failure and I felt like I just needed to bust out and find my own identity.  I didn't want to just be a mom, daughter, ex-wife or care-taker.   I loved my children but I really needed to find me.  I started dating and looking around.  This song is reminiscent of those years.


8.)  Bitter by Teddy Geiger
I realized after some time that I wasn't bitter anymore and I could move on from a failed marriage.  It was really hard to pick up and start again but I did it and survived.


9.)  Million Dollar Bill by Whitney Houston
This is how I feel about my husband.  He is my rock, my soulmate and he really makes me feel like a million bucks! 


10.) Theme to Good Times by Jim Gilstrap and Blinky Williams
This is the theme song for my family, all of them.  We may not have much but we are always there when needed and give what we can.  They have taught me to be not only moral but conscious of my fellow man . . . and woman.  They are the embodiment of "Am I my brother's keeper?"  It's no wonder that there are so many of us.

Wow that was really difficult since I have so many songs that represent various periods of my life.  However, this list will do for now.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Just another lazy sunday . . .

I really didn't have a blog for today as I have been super busy with family.  So, instead I have a few cute pics for you.  Here we go . . .



This is my lovely daughter Ayanna during her 8th grade awards ceremony last month.  They grow up so quickly, don't they.



This is Zionne's birthday cake.  She is my youngest at seven years old.  The woman who made this cake is actually the geometry teacher with whom I co-teach, Nicki Gonias.  She is really talented.



This is Zionne looking quite sad when we were up in Ithaca, NY.  She wanted to swim in the watering hole beneath the waterfall. 



This is where she wanted to swim.  Aren't I just horrible for not letting her and thinking of her safety?  :D



Here is a close-up.  I really loved this waterfall!




Here is Zionne touching a mushroom.  Since we live in NYC, we rarely ever get to see this.  I know, it's just a mushroom but it was exciting to us at the time.



Here is my handsome son being silly and goofy.  Who knows what goes through the mind of a teenager?

Well, that's all for now.  Have a wonderful and lazy Sunday!

Saturday, July 17, 2010

City of Dreams . . .



City of Dreams, to some maybe.  To me, not.  The cacophony is overwhelming.  Walking across the Brooklyn Bridge is a reminder of what we once were.  The memories smother me.  Desolate.  Lonely. Inconsolable.  That is all that is left of me since you have gone.  In a city filled with people, I am alone. 

City of dreams, to some maybe.  To me, not.   I place one foot in front of the other until I reach the edge.  Spreading my arms out, I am free and kiss the cool blue that greets me. 

City of dreams, to some maybe.  To me, not.



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drabble- n. a story written in exactly 100 words.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Getting to Know You . . .





1. What is YOUR definition of sexy?

My definition of sexy is tall, dark and handsome.  *winks at husband*

2. Would you rather clean up puke or change a poopy diaper?

I would rather change a diaper.  Vomit is something that I just have issues with.

3. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

I think I am a little of both.  I can be extroverted when at a party or out with family and friends.  However, at work, I think I am an introvert.  I like to keep low key and get all my work done.

4. If you had to give up one of your 5 senses for a year..which one would you give up?

 I would probably give up smell.  I have an affinity for all the other senses.

5. Cake or Pie?

I can't decide.  I love them both!

6. If you could play any character on TV (old or current) who would you play?

I would love to play Micah on Warehouse 13.  I think she has the coolest job in the world working with magically mystical and historical objects.

7. My favorite website is.....?

Unfortunately, I will have to say Facebook.  I just can't stay off of it when at home.  I like the networking, the hooking up with friends that you haven't seen in forever, and getting out an announcement to the family quickly.

8. The highlight of my day is....?

When I can lay in my husband's arms and talk about our day.  It's very relaxing and a relief to de-stress.

I got this little fun activity from Mannland5 so head on over there and copy/ paste the questions.  So send me a link to your blog in your comment because I'd like to get to know you too!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

To Sleep, Perchance to Dream


To Sleep, Perchance To Dream

What a sweet relief it would be to sleep eternally and dream. My body is tired. I am terminally ill from appointments, lab tests, lab results, HMO's, the revolving door of physicians who, in the end, cannot help me. I trudge from building to building, office to office and laboratory to laboratory. To what purpose? I am dying. I am in that moribund state of limbo. I am neither dead nor am I truly living. What a sweet relief it would be to sleep eternally and dream. To sleep, perchance to dream.





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drabble- n.  A story written in exactly 100 words.

"To sleep, perchance to dream," Act 3 scene 1 lines 65-66 , Hamlet by William Shakespeare.

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Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Rhythm


Rhythm

The rhythm courses through our bodies with a tempo equivalent to our desire.  Sweat moves without obstruction down my breasts.  Your smell clings to my skin and mingles with my own musk.  The heat emanating off your body infuses me with a passion barely contained.  My hips mimick and mirror your every move.  I wrap my leg around you and I almost feel you within, enticing with what is to come.  Holding me close, just a hair width apart, you encircle my entire body with your sexuality. Hearts beating rapidly, the music slows and you carry me to bed.

Image courtesy of: Tango Rouge by Hamish Blakely http://www.castlegalleries.com/artists/hamish_blakely/collection.asp


drabble- n. story written in exactly 100 words.