Never.
Never did I believe that life would be so hollow without you. You were absent from the first family event of the year. It was an unrelenting agony. I cried in utter anguish over the injustice of it all but still you did not walk through that door and you did not kiss me hello. You did not eat and converse and you did not lend a helping hand. These are all the great qualities you brought to our table over the years. Yet you will never walk, kiss, eat, converse or lend a helping hand ever again.
Never.
Image taken from Wikimedia Commons .
This is in memory of my brother - Gilbert Orlando Gadsen II, October 2, 1985 to February 2, 2007.
I love you, hermanito.
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this is a lovely piece - the heart breaking finality of death and our longing for the presence of those who won't show up.
ReplyDeleteThis was beautiful to read, it reminded me of my second,third and fourth grandchild being born without their grand dad alive to see them. Life does go on but oh those memories.........
ReplyDeleteYvonne
This was beautiful to read, it reminded me of my second,third and fourth grandchild being born without their grand dad alive to see them. Life does go on but oh those memories.........
ReplyDeleteYvonne
xoxo
ReplyDeleteheartbreaking. the truth.
xoxo
B
@Jan- It's weird how it has been four year's since my brother's passing but I still expect him to show up at family gatherings.
ReplyDelete@Yvonne- Yes, life does go on. It is surprising when I have those moments and think about all the what ifs. . . But you are correct, we will always have the memories.
@ Deb- Every year I go through this. There are times when such sadness overcomes me but I know that at least he doesn't hurt anymore.
Thanks everyone.